Well it only took me just over a week to not post a daily update but the truth is I’m going through a bit of a crises.  I started my latest art class and whilst it a while since undertook a longish course I feel I’m starting to get a bit stale.  I guess I need to clarify that – I feel I’ve taken life drawing as far as I can at this level.  The question is do I want to take things to the next level at all?   Or do I examine the digital realm further where I can produce images that I find rewarding?  I don’t know the answer to that one but I what I am asking is where is all this leading me?

I have never had any pretensions to becoming a  professional artist nor have I ever looked for any inner meaning in what I make – it is what it is and that is its own reward. What I want to do is produce things that I enjoy on an intrinsic level.   I have explored painting in the real world and this has left me flat – I guess in part when I compare the results to my digital paintings they look so much better – in my eyes at least.

What I really enjoy is drawing and sketch book work.  The thought of a long term project in the real world leaves my somewhat dead.  So do I retreat into the world that has given my so much fulfilment or do I stick at something I don’t find that rewarding in the hope that the more I work at something the more I’ll get to love it?   I don’t the answer and hence the crisis.  Only time will tell the answer to this confusion.

Never Forget. An Ending.